There's a lot of things that I document on this blog. But most people who actually read this (if there's any) would consider all of it just bull shit ranting. But to me every post have meanings and stories behind it. There's always a reason for me to stop everything that I do and just write and type and sink into an ocean of words.
To me it's some sort of way for me to just let go of anything that I can't talk to people about. I won't directly write what my problem are. But I'll just write anything that sound random, but only I know what's the story behind the post.
Life has been a complete mess, well again. No surprise there. And I have been trying real hard to cope. All the plans for Easter, for winter, for summer has been cancelled. Don't feel like going back for the raya celebration anymore. Feels like I'm ten steps backwards now on my life plans now. Well generally speaking, everything is in shamble right now.
But at the end of the day, you just can't throw everything to the bin. Everything that you've work on. Your reputation. Your progress in life. I guess I just have to start picking up the broken pieces and glue them back together right? Won't be pretty anymore but hey, better it be fix than thrown away. It'll be a damn hard loss.
Anyway, to the fucktard who mess my life, fuck you.